Monday, November 15, 2004
wat the hell! i slacked & slacked. i watched as every hour goes by & i'm still doing nothing. the fact that i dont know anything on statistics made it worse. yes i'm panicking. but i am not doing anything to help myself. wat a day... i just want to get over and done with. alevels really sucks. i can already predict my results. CDD? or at most a CCD. i cant get any grades which are better den this. i know myself. i hate myself.
asked him to teach me maths today. he said okie. but he said he gotta go off in the evening. i asked where is he going. he replied saying he'll be meeting his gf. a total turn off can. one moment ago i was happily dancing around the room coz he's going to teach me stats, the next moment i was in front of my computer thrashing out everything in my game. anger i guess. in the end i didnt want him to teach me anymore. i'd rather figure stats out myself. why would i want him to see me earlier of the day and have him rushing off to meet his gf. yea... jealous. i am a woman, this cant be helped. i just cant believe myself. why am i lidat? but watever it is, she's the first woman i hated. I HATE HER I HATE HER I HATE HER!!!!!!!!!!!
so here i am trying to figure out wat's standard normal distribution, sampling, hypo testing... etc. and i duno anything. as in really anything. pple from my class will really know wat i meant by everything. i managed to leave out the whole statistics section for prelims. and i know i'm very capable of doing that for tmr's paper too if i continue slacking and not learning my statistics. i know it's last min AGAIN. but hopefully i have the self-discipline in me to go study like NOW.
oh... i was telling bingxin this morning about my dream. it includes him, me, travins and kaiyun. it goes like this...
travins lives next to me, bingxin lives opp me. the 3 of us live on the same storey. our doors are always open. so we can always see wat others are doing and stuffs lidat. i walked over to travins's hse, he was having breakfast. i asked him where bingxin was. he replied he was still at home. so i went over got bingxin and went back to travins's hse together. we sat round the bar-counter chatting. and suddenly there was kaiyun, asking me to pass her something from my side. i didnt know wat she wanted. so i kept asking her wat it was that she wanted. den travins said that i was dumb and he passed her a cup. the rest laughed at me...
den i woke up. strange dream rite? becoz i duno travins personally and the 3 of us dont even live near one another. and kaiyun??? totally out la. ahahaha... i duno. it was just WEIRD.
now... i gotta go. bye. i miss my frenz. i miss my life.
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