Friday, April 15, 2005
i can see the GRAY clouds moving right above my head. omg. i have a clear view here. okie pple, holland area is raining. avoid coming to this area coz u will properly get stuck in the jam at the future-holland-mrt-station site. smiles.
anyway, holland village seems lack of pple. or rather not as crowded as before. i thought maybe becoz the newspaper stand had shifted to the opposite side where the roadside florist once was. think their business isnt as good too. anyway, i dont really care coz as long as they still have my magazines selling there, i will still buy from them. smiles.
was talking to harnie. think it has been ages since we had a serious heart-to-heart talk. told her something which has been on my mind for quite sometime. sigh. i feel bad. i do. but on the other hand, i really dont want to let go. i am afraid of losing to someone else again. i miss harnie. i miss the days in sajc where we would sit in the cafe to talk and cry on each other's shoulders. i miss u.
today being such a gray day set the mood for me to think about somethings. like i mentioned. i dont want to let go. i lost once. the feeling of losing it still lingers on in my heart and mind. i laughed stupidly at the reason. i still do. the days when i would cry myself to sleep. i just want to grab hold of the chance now. shouldnt we try to achieve wat we want? i dont want to just try. i want to get it. i must have it.
i think only some of u will know what i mean.
rembr the time-line i made some time ago? 1st job at the age of 24, marry at 26, have 2 kids, 1 boy and 1 girl... ... etc. i wonder if i can still stick to it.
thinking back on my best fren's life. why do the wrong-bfs keep appearing in our lives while the one we really wanted does not? wonder why?
waiting for him definitely SUX.
SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX SUX
for now, i enjoy his company. i love him. and the waiting continues on till the day i dont know when...
i am a sadist for today.
harnie, dont u think so?
go and have ur fishball noodles today instead and wait for me to go fish & co with u on anyday starting from this sunday. smiles.
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